I love words.
I love rainstorms, placentas, and travel.
I love circles, colors, and stars. I love people, poetry, tattoos, and tea.
I love finding joy! In art, in nature, and video games, In books, and sunsets.
I love finding magic in every day moments, and finding stories in between the lines that others skim over.
My heart beats for my family, and for birth.
Many birth photographers strive for an invisible presence in birth, claiming to be a "fly on the wall" but I own a different philosophy. I believe that each person in a birth space influences the birthing person and affects the space whether they mean to or not. I am super intentional with the energy I bring to birth. I am quiet and calm, gentle and giving. I hold space, and hold hands, and hold babies. I am what is most needed in each moment. A photographer, a friend, a doula, a mother, a nurturer, a coach, a silent sentry. I will cry with you, pray over you, and keep your secrets and dreams and fears. I adapt, I read people and rooms exceptionally well, and the energy I bring to your birth, is reflective of your needs and birth plan. While I work well with everyone, my heart belongs to the mother, and to her child. Their bond, and relationship, is most vital to me, and I strive to protect it, cherish it, and capture the magic of it through my work.
Areas of special training- certification- or experience include: PMADS, birth loss, special needs, mental illness, trauma, lactation support, lotus birth, home birth, unassisted birth, cesarean birth, miscarriage, still birth, postpartum support, postpartum planning and more.
I like to think I grew up with a little bit of everywhere in my blood. Living in multiple states, and traveling often, I never did have a home town, but all the earth fills my soul. Right now, I am calling North Carolina home, and it claims a huge slice of my heart. I adore the seasons here, the way the leaves turn green overnight in spring, and shock us with colors so vibrant in fall. I love the beach most, but also the mountains and forests and rivers and falls.
I share this home with my own little family; My husband, Justin, steady and strong and incredibly fun to be around, a good man everyone adores. My son, Despin, who's main goal in life is to make everyone laugh. He is hilarious, and kind, and is such a strong echo of my own beautiful soul.
I am also mother to a little girl named Elsie, who gained her wings too soon. She had a spirit of gold, and whispers to me in every sunset.
The two births of my children were polar opposites, and both fuel my passion for this work. I have a couple photos from each one, that I cherish with all of my heart. My sons birth was long and traumatic and terribly unsupported. Doctors made mistakes, nurses broke my heart, and the separation between my child and myself after birth sent us all into a long hard journey of postpartum depression and PTSD that would take years to fully recover from. It changed our story forever, and threw me into the world of birth rights. I clung to my birth photos while we were separated. They showed me small moments joy within this story that I could not recall for myself.
When Elsie was born, my sweet girl, everything was different. I was educated, I was supported to the point of feeling cherished. Despite the education, nothing could prepare me for her loss. I experienced a long journey through grief, one I still walk to this day. Despite the loss of her life, her birth story was SO full of grace and love and divine timing. It was magical, and healing. I trusted my body, I birthed on my terms, and it is simply a story that you have to ask me about one day. I still love to share and talk about everything she taught me. I have this one photo from her birth, that is just miraculous, I treasure it with all my heart.
Birth is unpredictable. Wild. Ethereal. It can take us to indescribable places. It is also vulnerable, and we must protect it and prepare ourselves to be active participants within its turns. Giving into the flow, being open to where it takes us. No matter how or where you birth, you deserve support and education and light, you deserve someone that will hold space for YOU, for your unique birth. That is what I am passionate about- giving the space that others take away.
"It put me in touch with what it means to be female in a way that we are not taught. We're taught how to have power if we can have the kind of power that men have, we're taught how to have power if we can be sexy and appeal to a man's taste in that way, but we're not really taught the really primal
embodied raw power that is what it is to be female...
and that's what you see in the birth room."
In Birth Becomes You
Contest and Review
Trained in Perinatal Mood
and Anxiety Disorders
Published in Lensational Magazine
2018 and 2019